Monday, July 30, 2007 . 6:09 am

I want to pursue a diploma in police studies!!!! Just found out this course, Certificate/Diploma in Police studies & Security Management. Sent out an e-mail to them and enquire whether I'm eligible for this course or not. Chances are quite slim though.

You know what, ever since I got into this 3rd depression, it got me re-think on what I want to do in life & what course should I pursue. I always thought that Electronics Engineering is my interest, but now it isn't. It's just a platform for me to further my studies thats all. Since my O level days, I had been wanting to study law but my results were not good enough. Suddenly Temasek Poly gave me this chance again, to revive my dream. It was the same poly that I wanted to go in Sec 5! Really hope that I can enter into this course. If not I'll have to stick back to my engineering course liao.

Hmm, so sian, it's Monday morning. Yesterday din go church. Went online to watch the service instead. But a very powerful and practical message. My faith in God is coming back again. Way to go! Jia you Isaac. Now just got to improve my daily life jiu ok liao. Next thing on my mind is work. Hope dat after August I can start working again. But very sian lor, some jobs have to work on weekends one. Zzz.. I want my weekend..... Yawnzz... Gtg, bye.

Sunday, July 29, 2007 . 12:04 am

Went to marina south today for pri sch gathering. Quite fun. 9 people altogether. Had a nice time chatting & catching up wid each other. Hmm, realised dat, not dat fearful anymore when u go out. Like I said, when there are friends around there wont be a problem. Only thing is going back time.

As for today, its quite ok. Cos my friends and I chatted on the train all the way till I reach redhill station. Most of my friends live in the west mah, so I'm the first one to alight. Hehe. Dats what I like best. Lol. So sleepy now, shan't blog too much. Only thing is, I like the food and the outing today. Yeah! But I was late, the latest among all the late-comers. Lol. Overall we enjoyed ourselves la. Too bad, forgot to take photo. If not can post up here liao. Ok, really gtg liao. Sleepy. Byebye.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007 . 11:15 pm

Ok, I'm so bored. My night life is back again... Zzz. Tried adjusting back to day life but everytime i go out I will get tired after dat. Then, will SLEEP the whole day after dat. When will I get better??? Today suppose to meet chris & rick but ended up its cancelled.

In the morning suddenly have this anxiety. Anxious about going out again. It's tiring for me. Bi jing I havent been going out for quite some time. So maybe, ya, have to slowly adjust lor. Received a call from 1 of my friend in church. It's good to know dat there are still people who care about one another as brothers and sisters in christ. Somehow, I realised dat I had neglected friends dat are so encouraging towards u. This saying is so true. When u are in love, u'll tend to do silly things & neglect the people around you. Admit dat I only wanted to share things wid 'her', but not anymore. Different people have different perspectives in life. To me, I just want to live a Godly life now. I strayed too much. Ventured out into the open & thought dat it's more interesting & fun out there. But after so many lessons learnt, realised dat nothing is more important than God. I want to be a good Christian from now on. To obey the word of God & be a blessing to others.

K, wrote abit too much today. Haha, gtg. Byebye. =)

Tuesday, July 24, 2007 . 4:50 am

A, I compared the pros and cons already. I'm going for part time studies next year. Firstly, the school fees are cheaper than full time studies. 2ndly, I can really study next yr instead of waiting 2 yrs to save up and then go full time. 3rdly, Whether part or full time or nt, its also 5 yrs, including the duration to save up. 4thly, choosing SP is nearer to my house than NYP which is further.

I was too reckless and greedy when I made the decision to choose NYP cause of the 4yr course, which is 1 yr shorter than SP. If u really sit down and think abt it, SP is more worth to enrol into. So, good luck to me next yr for applying. Only thing is, I have to overcome the fatigue/tiredness of working and studying. I can make it one. Hopefully this time I can really study hard enough to get a diploma cert in 5 yrs time. Thru the grace of God. I claim this promise in the name of God! Amen.

Monday, July 23, 2007 . 1:20 am

It was indeed a nice sunday for me out of so many weekends. The message was good. It's about prayer. 1 thing I learnt is, prayer is important in a Christian's life. Without prayer, there will always be a barrier between man and God. It's a relationship with Him. I am indeed blessed today to listen to the word of God thru pastor kong's teaching.

After dat had a great time of fellowship wid my c.g. members for lunch @ changi airport. I like the ban mian at the corner store, so nice. Hehe. After dat went to SGH alone to visit my dad. He's been diagnosed wid 'stone'. Seeing my dad becoming so frail and getting older, it breaks my heart. Both my parents... Hai, don wana talk abt them. It will only make me sad. Just hope dat they will get well soon. Ok, tmr gona be a boring day for me liao. Monday blues. Weekends so fast jiu over le, hope next week will come faster. lol. Gtg, byebye.

Saturday, July 21, 2007 . 9:26 pm

Hi, I'm back. It's Saturday and here I am @ home blogging. Hmm, met up with Eric y'day already. We talked for like 2 and a half hrs? Long talk a.. Lol. Hmm, ok, I think my night/day life is improving. I wrote b4. Just make sure I don't take afternoon naps can already, if not at night very hard to slp one.

Hmm, ok, tmr going back to church le. But its CHC. Argh, i don wana decide anything yet. Just let nature take its course. Just wana recover from my illness. Whichever church can make me feel better I will go. So, dun ask me abt which church to stay put. Ok, monday gona start finding for part time jobs le. Zzzz. Purpose: 1) Work to pass time. 2) Work to earn more $$$. Dats all. Lol. Nice sat. feeling for me. Hope dat tmr will be even more a brighter day. =)

Friday, July 20, 2007 . 3:38 am

Yes, I wana talk on the phone!! It's been months since I had talked on the phone. Cant slp again, zzzz. Thinking back, last time I don't really like to talk or chat on the phone one, unless there's something necessary. But ever since I knew my ex, I began to talk on the phone alot. Getting more & more talkative. But there are exceptions when I just wana be alone. Haha.

Ok, its 3.45am. Few more hrs gona meet Eric for breakfast. Woa, I cant wait to talk. Haha. Havent call my mum yet, its been quite awhile already. I'm waiting for the perfect time to call her!! Argh. Ok, now my life is getting more and more boring. Suddenly thought of the days when I get to go to the zoo & night safari wid my friends last yr. So fun. Church stuff, I'm keeping my fingers cross first. Though I have an answer already, but I need at least an assurance that sticking to that particular church will do me good. Really very boring..................... I miss u............... I also dono who I miss.. lol. So lame. I'm talking nonsense. Haha. Ok, go play game liao. Byebye

Thursday, July 19, 2007 . 12:37 pm

Just woke up, ate my lunch. Quite windy & refreshing today. Tmr meeting Eric le. A gd step to recovery. Well, hopefully I can get well soon. Thank God for His wonderful works. Though He has chastised me & I have backslided, was defiant & went the wrong way, He is always there for me.

He sent angels to help & guide me along. I have learnt my lesson. The hard way, of handling relationships. Though I single now, I'm contended with what I have. Ok, I'm long-winded again. Haha. It's a brand new day! Take care all! =)

Wednesday, July 18, 2007 . 1:42 pm

Dreamt about my ex this morning. The feeling is so ... It's a bad feeling. Think of her will only let me think of the unhappy moments, the hurts & pains. Yes I was the one who rejected to patch back, but time constraints & communications were the problems. Plus, it was my fault that a 3rd party came into the picture too. But say all this also no use already, she has got a new bf & moved on. Just hope that she is doing well now and her bf to treat her well.

As for me, another day has just past. Recently I like this song, I GIVE. It's a Christian song from City Harvest Church. The chorus goes: 'Lord I give my life, a living sacrifice I place at your feet.' Yes I have found the answer, trusting God is the only way. By believing & trusting in Him, He can do all things. The 'fire' is back again? Haha.

At home, I'm so super quiet. But online there's so many things to say & talk with friends. The typical internet age? Haha. Well, gotta communicate more with my family. Ok, I shall stop here. Will update again. I'm so bored. Seems like I got alot of free time. Gona find work soon already, if not I'm gonna be bored to death. Its 3.30am in the wee hrs and here I am blogging. Lol. Night owl... ZZzz

Tuesday, July 17, 2007 . 11:09 pm

Hmm, not very confident whether I can bounce back anot. Withdrawn from poly, got into another relapse of depression. Well, hope that I can bounce back. I will. Be more positive & that will be good. Starting to open up step by step le.

Well, I think I was too ambitious & over-confident in the past. That's why. Maybe God wants me to be more humble in life. Would like to thank my close friends for helping & encouraging me during this period of time. Still have to change my sleeping habits. Ie, night become day, day become night. Lol.

Ok, gtg. Bye bloggy. Finally back after a long while. Lots of unexpected things happenned, that's why I was MIA for the past few months. Just hoped that everything goes smoothly from now on. Will update more often. The template design as of now is just temporary, forgot the webby to change blogskins. Anyone can remember?