Tuesday, June 26, 2012 . 12:12 am
Lets say in 3 years time, Bee and I can get married it would be a good way of 'escape' from the turmoil that I'm facing @ home. Just as I was about to embark on a challenging journey, this had to happen.Thankfully there's friends and Bb who are there to listen and be of an encourager in times of need. I really need to have a breakthrough for my family, especially myself. Having my Dad seeking for attention is really a tough thing mentally as well as emotionally. My patience is tested. Sometimes feel like hitting him but it dosen't solve the problem. He has parkinson-like disease as well as mental problems due to the medications that he's taking. Worse, a urinal tract infection had worsen his ability to urinate having a tube in his private ... to make it easier for him to urinate.
I could only pray and seek God daily reading His word, worship and praise Him. If not for a book that my friend lent it to me, I could have fallen into depression anytime. But I know that I have to keep on keeping on. Whats more, I have a gf to support and care for me at this point of time in my life. Should be thankful and appreciate her. The 'attacks' are getting stronger and stronger, if I don't do something about it, its gona overwhelm and its gona be a losing battle.
God will fight for us, yes I know. But realised that we got to fight the battle in line with God too, in the book writen by Joyce Meyer, 'Managing our emotions'. There's a character in the Bible which said that he fought the battle in line with God too. No doubt I will press on even if it means sacrificing and even if the going gets tough.