Saturday, May 31, 2008 . 8:47 pm
Lots of things went through my mind when I was on my way home. Today went for Cell group meeting at Home Team NS (Toa Payoh). Topic was about financial planning. It didn't occur to me that after confessing my feelings to her, things would turn out so bad.I totally ignored her today. Can't be bothered. After being hurt once, it's enough. Fancy me trying to give a morning call out of good will and this is the kind of treatment I get. Suan le, I rather channel my energy to the things which are more important. Let God decide.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008 . 12:54 pm
Early in the morning got into a debate session with my campmate.... -_- In the end I won the debate. Cos all his complains are based on unreal facts. I threw him one question at him and he was silent for the rest of the conversation.Why are Singaporeans especially, complaining about this and that? Don't we know that we are considered very blessed already? Look at the situation globally. Today is Wednesday le, 2 more days and it will be Saturday. Am I ready to face more challenges? Told one of my friend dat I don't know how to face someone on dat day. Don't ask me why, I just don't know how to face her. Regina asked me to stay focus if not I'll be sick thinking of all those problems. Well, I am staying very focus. Nothing will stop me from staying focus on my studies and career path. God is always there to protect me. He is the God that I know who will not fail us. It is by His grace and mercy that I am what I am today. Without Him, I can do nothing.
'Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.' Matt. 6:33.
Monday, May 19, 2008 . 8:45 pm
Title says it all. Why am I blogging again? It seems that God wants me to stay put in Bukit Panjang to be moulded. I thought that I was not welcome. Miraculously, Grandpa talked to me this afternoon.He wanted me to observe his house rules and that I would be able to take care of my mum and brother. He meant well, I know. But the discipline is somewhat harsh. I know that I have been through even harsher things in the army, but hello, I'm a NS man now. Not a NSF. Can you imagine being stuck at home and being bound by the rules at home.....????? I cried.......... Tear drops just rolled down and down........ If I was being raised up in a different kind of setting when I was a kid, would I be so soft...........???????
Lord, help me to overcome every obstacles that I'm about to face. Aunt prayed for mum and me just now. I would never imagine that such a dark secret would be leaked out just like that. Previous generation's secret. I know that if I were to find out every single secret in my family, I would not have been so kind enough to let go of certain things. But I just can't imagine that the person I respected in my family would so such a thing. Generation curses........ It destroyed the good family lifes.
Did something unexpected. Now I will never know how will she react to the words that I sent to her. I had no choice but to leave her alone for the time being. To be a successful person, I need to overcome all the hurdles that is going to happen. I know that it's going to be a challenge. Take it or leave it. Like my Guards motto, always ready, ready to strike. I will always be ready to defend my homeland and I will always be ready to fight the trials and tribulations that I will be going through. At the end of the day, it's whether will I be victorious or will I be defeated. The answer to this is to have a prayerful life. God has commanded us to pray and seek Him more. I will not, I repeat, I will not be easily defeated. By the power of God and the Holy Spirit, I will rise up. I will rise, all the way to the top and never will I be bound by the evil one.
Friday, May 16, 2008 . 11:16 am
Thanks to auto sending. Why do they want to remind me of the past? Of all days. I'm happily talking to someone else then it came on. So what if it's her birthday today? I ain't gona wish her a happy birthday. For what? That will only remind me of the moments when I was so so so down and out.Frankly speaking I have no confidence in relationships anymore. I told myself this, if i were to get married one day, I make sure that I won't end up in a divorce or a seperation like my parents did. It is affecting the whole family. Focus. Haha. For how long? If I'm gona channel all my resources to my work and studies, then what about my family? Are they not my dearest to me? 'Heaven and earth will fade, but His word will still remain and He will do something new today'. How new can it be????????
Thursday, May 15, 2008 . 7:44 am
It never occurs to me that I will be jogging early in the morning at Bukit Panjang, my aunt's place. It was a refreshing and a new beginning for me. Gone are the days where I have to drag my feet to work at Popular.Ever since I stepped out of Popular, I really felt peaceful inside my heart. Maybe God really wants me to quit that job. He has a better place for me to go to. As for my vision, well, I just leave it to God. If He wants me to go into ministry, I will obey His commandments. Take heed brethren, unless he is born again, he shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven. Oh no, am I starting to preach already? Lol. Maybe, as the Holy Spirit guides me.
Later going for interview liao, pray that it will be successful. Cisco Police is not easy to get in. But I trust that He will guide me and show me the right path to take. Lord, I lift everything into your hands. Guide me along as you would like a child to his Father.
Am very eager to go for Cell Group Meeting this Saturday. Haven't been going for the past few weeks. Well, gona have a BBQ session after that too! Hooray! Good fellowship starts from mingling around with brothers and sisters in Christ. Amen.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 . 11:48 am
Found a new job in the newspaper just now. Certis Cisco Security Force ask me go down for an interview tomorrow afternoon at Bukit Panjang. Pray that it will be a job that I like and not those funny funny wierd kind of jobs.ZZ signing off.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 . 5:46 pm
Never have I expected to be out of Popular so fast. It is really a challenge to be in this company. Though things may not turn out the way I expected it, but if it's God's will that I come out of the company, then praise the Lord.Now that I'm not working there anymore, my next move is to go back to work in Golden Village. Thank God that I have not resign from Golden Village yet, cos I know that I will eventually come back sooner or later. True enough, it happenned. This afternoon I tendered my resignation to my manager in Popular, wanted to resign long ago already. In His time, in His. He makes all things beautiful in His time. Father I just want to pray to you right now that though a door is closed, eventually You will open another door for me. I just have to keep on trusting You and have faith in You. To all my colleagues whom I have worked with, I thank you for looking after me and taking care of me. May all of you be blessed with the power of God. Time to move on.
Just hope that I will have a better option in terms of employment next time. Will stop here. Take care.
Friday, May 09, 2008 . 2:07 am
Wow, it's been quite awhile since I last blogged. Wanted to blog lots of things but there were too many to list down. Probably I could start with afew of them first.Firstly, it's about my work. For the past one month, I had the priviledge to work in Popular bookstore (Bras Basah) branch. Colleagues were good and the environment was not that bad. The only thing is that there's always work to do. Haha. I also had the priviledge to take over as Head of Department (H.O.D.) for Multimedia. As my previous H.O.D. has resigned one week after I worked there, I had to take on the responsibility of a H.O.D. as there was no replacement coming in. My colleagues and I had to help each other out when things had to be done.
At first it was quite stressful for me as I was new to the job and I didn't have proper training at all. But after awhile I got the idea and knew how most of the process are being worked out. So there goes my journey as a Acting H.O.D. If there's anything about Multimedia, my colleague and I will have to answer and bear responsibility for it. What's more a H.O.D. Well, my manager told me that it is a good learning experience for me. Take it in a positive way. Ya right, I had to endure all the hard work till I get sick and my flu and cough haven't recover yet. Zzzz..... -_- From serving customers which is the basic of a Retail Assistant, all the way to doing all the administrative work, do ordering and liasing with my buyers and suppliers, all these I had to learn from scratch. What's more, school in Singapore Polytechnic has just started not long ago. Do you know how pressurizing it is? Well, you can try to live my life.
Thank God that I do not need to go for monthly meetings if not I'll surely be 'executed' by all those 'big shots'. Thank God also for all the support I had from all my friends. Had a short but sweet fellowship with Valarie and Audrey last Friday when they came down to my workplace to have dinner together with me. Was quite touched by their gestures. Pray that I can recover fast and attend Cell Group Meetings and Service more often. Will stop here. Blog again tomorrow then. Good night.