Sunday, August 08, 2010 . 7:47 am
I cant reckon the fact dat u're feeling touchy, here and there. It really left a scar, emotional scar. Imagine me facing the trauma of wrestling wid ur ex by him pulling on to my shirt?
Wished i could have punched him on his stomach on that fateful day. I just didnt. And u pushing me to the ground and got hit by a car??? Violence is not the way to settle pblems. U really need to stop all these and change. Fancy u calling me to apologise and dat u regretted it? Apologising to my grandpa for wad u did? I almost wanted to press charges against u but i didnt. It wouldnt be good for both parties. U have evidence against me for hitting u too. Im not the Isaac that would hit a person in public unless provoked. I dont know whether u arranged for the meet up of u meeting him first before meeting me on the 26th July. Purposefully exacting revenge by playing wid my feelings? Purposely agitating me by sitting close to him and seeing him hugging u and when my father approached h im in the hospital he said that he's just protecting a friend???????!!!!!!!! And u protecting ur friend's interest instead of asking how is my injury??????Bullshit!!! Instead it was M who asked about my injury!!!!! When I cut myself, it was M who bothered to care. What about you??? U dont even care, y shld i even have a gf who dosent even care????? So wad if u have test and exams? Have i not helped u wid ur studies? And when im tired u complained of me sleeping and not helping u wid ur revision.
Are u not thankful enough? Instead ur family blamed me for everything. Have ur sis not looked at ur behaviour? Why put the blame on me? Look at ur own siblings before pointing ur finger at others.
I hate liars!!! You're one of a kind with him. Disgusting. Fancy u kissing him and letting him touching u and advancing on ur sensitive parts??? Hello!! Wake up!!!!
It really disgust me. The fact dat u lied to ur family about me hitting u the first time and that u lied to me twice, I dont know how to believe and trust u ever again. I wouldnt even want to touch nor hold ur hands ever again. Nor would i even want a patch up even if u were to be back to sg. So what if u miss me and call my house over again and again? It just annoys me.
Every place i go these few days kept on reminding me of the time we went together. Garfield, mickey mouse, Marche @ Somerset, Bugis Iluma, Causeway point. I still have to face up to it. Never will I date a foreigner ever again. Not dat i discriminate against them, but just that im not so in to mixed dating. The culture is so different. Simple but yet hard to contemplate between present Singaporeans' mindset versus traditional Bruneian mindsets.
Been indulging myself wid activities these few days. Swimming, gym, outing wid friends and group sessions. Letting go is darn so difficult. Friend M says it takes time. Pls tell me when is the correct time dat i can totally let u go and start life without u. 3 months?
=l This rela i will never forget, short but painful for me to even bear the consequences. Never will i be so easy going in choosing a partner ever again. My standards of a gf is much more higher now. A christian girl on fire for God. Spiritually the same level and compatible as it seems.
Am gona guard my heart tightly and protect myself from harm from now on.
